Transcript of #614 - New York Circus

It was even bad in America.

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The circus is coming to town. I just saw that. I don't know if there's any circus lovers, but the circus is back. You know what? When I was a child, the circus was a big thing. You had a couple of times throughout the year, you'd get this little ticket at school, and it say on its circus at the top. It say, Willy's Circus. A risky Ricks Circus. It would say, Admit 1, just on this ticket, you could get it anywhere. They were just giving out free tickets. It would be like this pet and zoo fucking rocks, it would say, or something like that on the back, or where pet and zoos go to fuck. It would say, Shit, that's a lot. But it was a big deal back then when the circus came because you'd see them setting up in that big top, that tent, and they wheel all the animals in there. Some of the animals, they'd been through a lot. They'd look like they'd maybe just got back from war, something war II or something. Some of them missing an ear, have a fake ear. They'd have an elephant, but then one of his ears, they'd have just two...

They'd put a damn potted plant in the hole over there, and he'd have a damn elephant ear plant growing out of the side. They'd paint that bitch gray over there. You'd see a guy on a ladder just painting that elephant, just painting a big plant ear gray, just trying to line it all up. They put a big bow tie on him, call him Big Ginger or whatever. Spray paint on his back. You'd see a giraffe, but that bitch had a short neck on him. You're like, God. You'd see a damn giraffe. He was 4'4, and that bitch was just pissed, too. Pissed. It almost looked like if you tickled him the right way, his neck would just get to the right size. He was just like that wide neck. Remember that fellow wide neck that was running around? He was an African-American running back that only played drugs or whatever. You know what I'm saying? He didn't have a sport, and that was the circus, and it meant something. You were excited about it. You talk about it at school and you'd go there. I just saw the flyer that a new one. It was called the God's New Circus.

It looked like a Cirque de Sole Circus. It just looked like a rave for children. They had a couple of damn drones out there, Palantier just shooting popcorn in a kid's mouth and stuff. It had a different etiquette to it. I don't even know if they had any animals. They had a couple of gender-neutral dudes just whistling in each other's mouths type of deal. They had a blind fellow just singing Fred Again lyrics and stuff. It's just gotten very progressive, it feels like the circus. They used to have real animals. You'd go out there, you'd see a couple of monkeys out there. Over there and one of them be smocking for you. You pay, get you 50 cents over there. Go visit that smocking monkey. See if he'll ash on your mama's back or something. They had long arms. They'd ash in a baby car or just something like that. It was more involved. They let the animals live a little. They used to have real lions, too. Back then, they had real lions. Now, you got a couple You got a couple of hardy women over there wearing Aiden Hutchinson jerseys and just complaining that their breasts are too big.

Now, they got a gluten-free concession stand. The peanuts allergies. They got that. Back in the day, they had a dude. You would find a dude at the circus with a peanut allergy. They would find that dude. They would give them a couple of handfuls of peanuts and then that bitch running through a ring of fire, baby. While people in the crowd saying, For those about to rock. Now, it's just they find a dude with a peanut allergy, right? They put him in a hazmat suit. They have him run and jump through a ring of peanuts into his two mother's arms. I'm just saying, Yeah, it's just a different time, man. It's just a different time. That's what time does. It It keeps making things different, doesn't it? Man, time does not like to wear the same outfit, baby. That's the truth. Time likes to... Time likes every minute just freshly ironed, baby, right out the package. Time is just... It likes to feel brand new, baby. But God, that circus was fun. You'd go there. Sometimes, some of the circus workers, they just set themselves on fire and just collect damn workman's right there, right in front of you.

Fuck. People would cheer and just damn just God and just pray. So, yeah, it was just a different time, man. That's the circus. That's the circus. It's back. We had a circus last week in New York, in New York City. I want to talk about that. I want to just go through it because there's a lot of stuff out there, speculation and all of that, and I want to just get super clear on it, right? Because I think a lot of people don't know what went on. It wasn't that crazy what went on, and I wish it was going to be a more exciting story. But I just want to share with you what happened, I guess. I don't want to make it a big deal, but I do want to just go into it. Mental health is important to me. It's important to me. We talk about that stuff on here a lot. Hold on. I think it's been something that we talk about a great deal and just think about and explore. I had a comedy special that we were taping. We were taping it last week. About a month before I quit taking some antidepressants I was taking.

I just self-ween myself off. The reason why was because I wanted… During the comedy show, I wanted to have a little bit more emotion during it. I wanted to have this… I just wanted to have some more feelings. If you've ever taken an antidepressants or if you haven't, it takes away your feelings. You just stay in this space where you're okay. It's nice. It's a safe space, but you're like the astronaut that stays on the ship sometimes. You get to do the thumbs up and shit, but other dudes are like… Other people are out there. Anyway, so I quit taking my medication because I wanted to have a little bit more feelings during the show. I wanted to be able to talk about stuff a little bit more that meant something me and put it into the comedy show. That was all going fine, right? I was doing fine with that. We were headed into the comedy show, and then the Charlie Kirk thing happened, right? The Charlie Kirk murder happened, which was really crazy. It was just a crazy thing. I've talked about it before. I'm not going to talk about it anymore right now.

But a few days after that or maybe a week after that, the Department of Homeland Security put a video up online talking about... They started making like, trap beat edits and like, banger edits to evicting people from the country or eliminating illegals, maybe some criminals, some people just undocumented, just across the spectrum. So They put a video of mine that I'd made for somebody in a parking lot, probably maybe a year and a half ago, just jokingly. I think it was a year and a half ago. They put it in at the front of this Department of Homeland Security, like Trap Beat. I think they had, I'm not sure if they had, like Young Boilers, whatever they had. But it was ridiculous. The video was a girl had walked up to me in a parking lot and she had said, Hey, my friend just got deported. What do you have to say? Or do you have a message? I can't remember what it was. I was just like, Bye. I didn't know if it was real or not. I had no idea. I was just joking around. A stranger came up to me in a parking lot.

I think it was after a show and there were some people gathered around and we were just BSing and taking pictures and just associating. Anyway, long story short, that happens. This video It goes mega viral. 25 million, 30 million views. It's everywhere. The front of that Homeland Security video, it's on the White House thing. It's on everything. It's everywhere. The first 10 seconds of it are me. I don't have anything to do with this shit. Nobody asked me about it. Nobody said, Hey, this is going to happen. I have a lot of different thoughts about immigration. They're showing people getting It's just an intense thing. Why is the government even making these? I don't know. But that's where we're at in the world. I have a lot of thoughts about immigration. I have a ton of them, and we don't need to go into them all right now. I've talked about them on other episodes. I feel like they're doing a lot of bookkeeping in the country right now because we're going to get into a surveillance state and everyone is going to have to be on the books. That's where I believe that we're headed.

But this was just wild. People are sending messages and hateful stuff, and you think all these illegal shit and all this type of shit. I could talk to you ad nauseam about that, but this wasn't the time for it. It just was something that they used and put out there and everybody saw. I'm getting a ton of hateful stuff. I'm trying to remember everything. I'm trying to remember everything right now. But this video goes everywhere, and I'm getting a lot of like, Dude, what the fuck? Just It's all shit. My phone just blown. I'm like, What the hell? It's just the last thing I needed. There's a week left to this special, and this happens. This thing comes out. My father immigrated here from Nicaragua, One of my prized possessions is I have his immigration papers when he came here, and I have them in a frame, and him and his siblings when they came here. I have tons of thoughts about it, but this was just fucked up. It was It was fucked up, and it was everywhere. It was on all platforms and stuff. That had me really paranoid. That had me start to get paranoid and closing.

I had the curtains in my house closed. I was just like, you're paranoid. I woke up the next morning. Sorry, I need some water. I I woke up the next morning to a text from a high government official saying, Hey, if you need some extra security in your neighborhood or some extra police cars on patrol, let me know. I'm like, What? What are you talking about? Extra security. I don't have any... I don't even know the code to my ring camera. I don't even know how to log in. You're just going to put police cars in my neighborhood? What are my neighbors going to think now? They're fearful. It just I don't know, man. That really shook me. It really shook me. But you just keep marching on, and you start getting security. But now you have security, right? And the thing is, you just don't know. You just don't know. There was a moment on the... It was White House, because the White House also put this out. Thank you, White House. That Look, I'm all for the board. I'm all for tighter boards. I'm all for accurate knowing who's on. I'm all for knowing who is in a country.

I'm all for knowing what's in the cupboard of a society. I think you should know every item on the log. I think it should be known, right? I do. Now, how do you get there? That's the bigger question, and we don't have to discuss that today, right? It's not about that. Sorry, I'm going slow here. I'm trying to piece this together. Now I have this thing with security. But then you get a security person, and now if you're walking on a security guide, then that's uncomfortable. Because now it makes you spooked. You're like, What's going on? There's just all of that's happening, and then we get to just the job, which is performing, speaking in front of strangers. You had just seen this thing with Charlie Kirk. We all watch somebody get lit up. We all watch somebody We get murdered, casually on our phones. I don't mean to say it like that, but that's how it came across to us. There's no warning on a lot of video you see. Just a lot of, I think unnecessary pressure, a lot of stress going on that I did. Some of it I was aware of, and some of you just don't know you're aware of it, I think.

Because I think sometimes you don't know what stress you're holding. One day, I got a call from a friend of mine, and they said they were going into rehab, and I just started bawling. I didn't realize that there was a part of me that was waiting to hear that from them and that it really made me feel some type of way. Sometimes it's like you just don't know what stress is you're holding. Anyway, we get to the shows, we're there, and it's a lot. It's a lot. There's a lot of last-minute choices to be made. It seemed to go messier than the past specials that I'd taped. It seemed to be a lot more confusing. It all could have been just my perception. Because what started to happen was on this day, I was starting to feel a little bit... I don't know if manic is the word. I don't know what manic means. I've said manic, but I don't manic meaning. Let me see. What does it mean when someone is manic? It says trying to meet mans. That's the first one. This is fucking... See, this is how bad shit's gotten. You're trying to figure out if you have some an anxiety disorder, and next thing you know, you're getting damn emails from a local men's bar or whatever.

It is defined as an extremely unstable, euphoric or irritable mood, along with an excessive activity or energy level. Okay. Accessibly rapid thought and speech. I probably could have used a little more of that. I think I started to feel mildly manic. I think it was just being off the medication, I think. It wasn't insane. It was just little things like the The second I got on stage, the first show, I couldn't feel any moisture in my mouth. I started to feel like... You ever remember that feeling if you were in high school when you got high and then you were standing there talking to your friends and you were just too high and you were just literally Just really standing there just trying to pretending to be yourself a little bit? I had a little bit of that going on. It started off choppy. The first show, it started off choppy. We were doing a new intro with Joey Diaz at the last minute, and he was pretty gouomed up. He's Coco. It was a blessing that he was there, but we hadn't ran through it. It was just a lot of things at the last minute.

But yeah, I'm on stage. The second half of the first show went good. There were some beats that I got that had an emotional piece to them that I wanted, and that felt exciting. But the whole show, there were parts where I just couldn't remember the next thing. I couldn't remember my next sequence. I was having trouble just keeping track of stuff. And that's when I really was like, Oh, man, I'm just off tonight. I just It was just like, I'm just off tonight. And even I think I remember saying to the audience, Thank you guys just for being here for me. The audience was cool, man. People were happy to be there. They were super stoked when I came out. I started to feel bad that I wasn't giving them the best show, but the show ended up going a little bit long, blah, blah, blah. We get to halftime or in between the two shows, and Chris Rock is He's there. My favorite, right? I see Chris Rock smiling, you just feel like, This is going to be good. It's almost like when somebody that was good in class at making a good joke.

Then you see him and you're like, Oh, the Michael Jordan has arrived. Anyway, seeing him, and I was almost like, I was way so excited about seeing him. I was very excited, but then I realized I was over-excited. He enjoyed the show. I went into the second show feeling like, Okay, I got to figure some of this out. I couldn't tell if people were being legit Okay, was it good? Was it bad? What was going on? Then I took an ice bath between the shows. I was doing my yoga. The same usual The stuff I do. Anyway, sorry, I know this is getting long. Then we did the second show, and the second show started out fire. First 22 minutes, we're cooking. Then I just… I I don't remember stuff. We didn't put a teleprompter. We've done it for other specials, we didn't do it. That was a bad choice. I don't know if I probably made the choice for sure. I don't remember. I had to ask for I was having to ask off stage because I wanted to get everything in sequence. I think I got stuck on this sequence thing. It was just hard, man.

I didn't feel like myself. I felt like I was trying to pretend to be myself. It wasn't insane or extreme. That was it. We got to the end of the show, and we were standing around afterwards. With the producers and the director, my friend Kevin, and just like, Did we get it? Did we get it good enough? Because I want this special to be… You do the material for so long. My buddy Neil Brennan said this the other day before it. He said, I got to hair in my eyes today. He said, Dude, this is the last time you'll ever with this material. It's really the last time we'll probably ever do it. This material has been a friend of me over the years. It's taking me around the world. It's gotten me to see a lot of people that love me and that I love. That was just a neat sentiment of a way to embrace the material and stuff. But I was just at the end of the night, I was like, I don't know if we got it. They're like, Yeah, well, let's edit together something and see. I was like, Okay, but I just I couldn't feel the magic.

I just was off. That was it. We left the show, we left the theater. We took pictures. I went up by the stage at the end of each show and we were like, taking pictures of people that are sitting there. That's when some girl, there was a clip of me, which I think this is what made things ridiculous. Where in passing, I just was like, or I don't know if it was in passing, I haven't seen the clip, honestly, and I haven't been online. I woke up the next day to a bunch of things like, Bro, what's up? Or things like that. I was like, Oh, my God. What's going on? Did I steal somebody's horse? Did I hit somebody with a vehicle? I have no idea. It was just alarming. Then a buddy of mine sent me a clip, and I could just see the outside. It was like, you could see me on stage. Then people were asking me about suicide, and I was like, Oh, God. I don't even remember exactly what I said, but I can certainly see me saying something like, Oh, just try not to take my own life.

Which I understand it's not a joke to some people. It's not a joke to me. But it's something that I'll say. I'll say stuff sometimes. I say stuff. You know You know that. If you've listened to this show before or seen anything, you know I say stuff. I would never take my own life. I would never take my own life. You hear that, Israel? I would never take my own life. I'm grateful to God for his grace in my life. I love my siblings. I have so many friends and people that love me and people that I want to see their children grow up. I'm hopeful that I get to have a wife and meet my own children one day. There's a ton of things in my life that keep me alive and hopeful. I want to be able to have an impact in the world. Those are just a few of them, probably. I mean, so many just moments we've shared on this show that I'm like, Oh, I live for those things. I mean, I want to see Vandy win a championship, so I'm going to have to be alive for a long time.

You know what I'm saying? Type shit. But anyway, I woke up to that and I was like, Oh, man. I guess I had a lot of different... Well, in In addition to that, people wrote articles, Oh, this is bad. Look, it wasn't great. I didn't love it. I had a lot of people that said it was great, though. I have people say, Dude, we loved it. It was great. But I didn't think it was perfect for sure. But I thought, let's just look at the edit and see. We still haven't decided. We might shoot again at some point. I don't know what's going to go on. But there was just this energy now where it was like, everybody started checking on me, and I was like, Oh, man, this is tough. There's people that would think like, Oh, well, he failed, or who want to write up something that says he failed or make a meme I saw one thing it said, Boms, Netflix, or whatever, taping or whatever. Awesome. Thank you, dude. But homie, I was fucking in that bitch because you should have seen me, though. You should have seen me. You ever see that show dog?

A lot of times you'll see that dog show, and it's that Wista Minst. I think it's Wista Minster. The Wista Minster dog show. You see that, bitch, boy? They got some dogs in that bitch. Then they got that other, bro. They got that other little... I mean, this bitch was just a little thoughtwaller, this bitch. They got that little male thoughtwaller rolling up. You're like, damn, that little bit. He got a little, maybe an anklet on or something. Maybe he got a house arrest bracelet on his tail, but that bitch is in there. They're like, damn, he ain't supposed to be here. But he's over there. He's listening to DMX. We're right here. All the other dogs got all them crazy tricks, and he just fucking, he'll gamble on his phone real quick or do something like that. Or he'll fucking run a parlay or something on his phone, and that's his trick. He'll smoke Virginia slim right there and hit that bitch. You know what I'm saying? Anyway, what I'm saying is, bitch, I'm out there. I'm in the ring, bro. I failed so many times. You could write what you want, big dog.

Write what you want. It wasn't perfect, man. I'll agree to that. I've gotten so used to it. Times I have failed, it's okay. I eat failure for breakfast, but you fill me up with failure Because over the years, kids. It's okay, man. That's part of the job. The first 10 years of doing comedy is failure. So much of my life, the best things that have ever happened on my life had been on the other side of failure. It would be great if one day we could all live in a space where we all… We lived in a neighborhood where everybody, when they went out in the world, they was potentially We're potentially going to fail, boy. We riding right on the edge, baby. And that we admired that about each other. Anyway, I'm not looking to downplay or make it, we might reshoot it again. We'll see what happens, and that's it. Because if you're not on that risk of failing, I don't know what I'm going to be. If I'm not on that risk of failing, I don't know what I'm going to be. It's like a plant bulb. If you saw a plant bulb is brave, right?

Like a floral bulb, right? Because if he just stays a bulb, he's just that little green little monster, right? That little nugget. But when he blasts open, he don't know what he's going to get out that bit, bro. He might be a rose, he might be a defadil, brother. He might be a He might be a damn succubus or whatever. He might be a gladioli. You don't know when you pop that top, what you're going to get out of yourself. Imagine you walk through the woods and all the flowers are just loaked out. They all just in hiding, bro. They're all in Witness Protection program, bulbs. But now they took that shot, bitch. Anyway, I don't know if I'm rambling or just my own ego. That was it, man. There was a video about… That stuff happened. But then the thing that made everything hectic was someone recorded a video of me making a passive comment, joking around about suicide. I didn't even mean to. I didn't know people were recording me at that time. I don't think that they are anymore. I think I got to evolve in my own head that that's how things are now.

Another thing had happened. I didn't even tell anybody this, but I went to the doctors a couple of weeks ago. This was I think, two days after the Charlie Kirk shoot. I went to the doctors. I'm in the doctor room, and it's just me and a nurse. She comes in and I'm talking about, I got to get a check and everything where they do you nuts or whatever. We're talking about body and everything and talking about genitals or whatever, and body. We have this conversation, and then the nurse, she says after, she says, Hey, I brought something for you. I'm like, Huh? She's like, I brought something for you. It really spoked me, bro, because I'm in a doctor's office. This is a place where you think you can be safe. Man, that was a tough moment. My mom was in town. After that, I remember sitting in my car with her. I got a little teared up because I was like, Oh, man, no place is safe anymore. The The girl just wanted to do something nice. I think she wanted to give me something. I don't know. But it was just that invasiveness of like, Man, this is supposed to be a very private place.

I mentioned it to the doctor. Then I made sure that the nurse didn't feel bad She's just trying to be a nice person. I believe that her motives were in a good place. I don't hold any ill will against her. But it was just like, I don't know, there was just a lot of little things that were adding up to stress. Yeah, that's what happened. It's just been like, I've had so many people reach out. So thank you so much. I've had so many people say nice things. I can't believe. To me, it felt very in passing, and then I was just burnt out. But just know that I'm never at a place like that. I'm far from a place like that. There may have been times when I was a kid or something where I had some negative Some stuff was scary. But yeah, I'm going to be here. I'm going to be here. You're going to be here. We're going to be here together like we always been. That was it. There was nothing else to the evening, we tried to really keep things together. There was no drug issue. When Coco showed up, there was smoking.

But there wasn't… It It was just the fuse was short going into it. The fuse was short going into it. I remember right when we got to the theater, some guy was supposed to show me to my dressing room. He took me on a seven-minute journey out into the fucking caverns of some building. I don't even know where we were. There was like a Teenage Meeting in Turtles there. I was like, Oh, fuck, I'm already… I could feel my fuse being pretty low. But I still tried. I think they're looking back, maybe I should have pulled the cord. I don't know, though. You don't know until you know until where you are. I don't think I would have done anything different. I made all the choices. I didn't realize how much stress I had, and that's it. But I do want to say this about suicide. A friend of mine, a close friend of mine, years ago, his sister She was dealing with a lot of stuff. She was dealing with a lot of stuff. She couldn't say she... She was having trouble talking about it. She was having trouble talking about it. She didn't want to bother people.

She finally told a member of their family, and they didn't want to worry everybody in the family with it. They told the rest of the family that she had mono, and so she was suffering. Then within a year, she had taken her own life. She just couldn't handle where she was at. I just want to say her name, Christie Ann, and just let her know that people think of her and that her brothers love her and that she's an angel out in the keeping tabs on people. That's a beautiful thing. But I think about that story from my buddy sometimes, and it's like, I think people get stuck in a space where they're like, Yeah, I'm going to bother somebody. Or I've already told my friends so many times that I'm not doing good. None of that stuff matters. It's like, however you have to speak up about something, if you have to, I think it's worth trying to try and more I don't know if that means anything. I'm just saying, yeah. I don't know what I'm saying. I think I just wanted to say, Just have a moment and just let it be known that that young lady is missed.

I think maybe that's something that I just wanted to think about out loud. And that however you have to say something, say it. But I was just joking, man, and I know it's not something to I joke about, and I get that. I appreciate all the beautiful concern and the thank yous and just the outpouring. I just started to feel like, God, I don't even know how to tell everybody that I was just joking. I joke about some dark stuff sometimes, and I joke about everything. I think that's what makes you able to do comedy sometimes. I don't know. I don't want to look at myself too much like that because that gets egoey. But yeah, I'll be here forever, and we got to see how this fucking circus goes. We got to see how this short giraffe balls out. I love you. Thank you for loving me. It would take me forever to thank everybody for the nice messages. It really would. But gosh, I'm fine. Don't treat me weird. Don't be weird. I'm not weird. I'm chill. You're good. We riding, bro. We riding, bro. Type shit, boy. Let's get to a few calls that came in here, and maybe we'll keep it in this space.

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Theo. My name is Tom, and I've called a number of times.

What's up, Tom, brother. Thank you for calling, man. Well, thank you for calling back. Onward.

I just want to thank you again for everything that you do, just for being real, for not being too good for anybody. And this hotline, bro. I'm sure it means a lot to a lot of people. I lost my son a year and a half ago to suicide. It was tough, man. I still have nightmares and visions of just seeing that, finding that. I don't know, man, it's hard to talk about. But I found your show about, I'd say four months after that happened. When I tell you that you gave me a reason to laugh for the first time since it had happened, you did, bro. And I got to say that being an addict and being cleaned for the last five and a half years, it would have been really easy to use as an excuse to go back. But I didn't. And I truly believe that God, number one, and just being able to laugh again kept me free. And I feel like honestly saved my life, brother, and I appreciate it. I love you. I love what you do. Thank you for everything.

Praise God, man. Thank you, Tom. Thank you, brother. I'm so sorry to hear about your son. I bet he misses you, and I bet he loves you. They may not even have feelings over there where you miss people. I bet it's just pure love. But I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I can't even... There's not a word I could give you, except that I'm happy to hear your voice today. And thanks. Thank you for letting me be a part of your laughter. Sometimes when I'm in pain and stuff, I won't even let people make me laugh It's like, that stuff when you're young or something or something's rough and you want to laugh, and it's like, you won't let somebody make you laugh. It's almost out of posterity and stuff. But man, thank you, Thank you just for sharing that story today and for letting us have a moment to remember him. I don't even know what he looks like, but I'm just going to remember a sweet soul that loved his father and that was trying his best in the world. Yeah, that's cool. That's cool. He feels like a neat kid. Thank you so much, Tom, for sharing that with us today.

Let's hear another call. We'll take one more here. What do we got here?

Hey, what's up, Leo? My name is Lane.

What's up, Lane, baby? You hear a lot about that Lane, baby. The HOV Lane, brother, that threesome. Let's hear more about it.

I just want to call in and give my son a shout out. His name is Mateo. He's three years old, and he's finishing chemo for the second time.

I just want to ask- Let's go. Let me catch his name again.

I just want to call in and give my son a shout out. His name is Mateo. He's three years old, and he's finishing chemo for the second time. I just want to ask for a prayer, brother.

A prayer that I should don't come back.

Prayer from the community.

Yeah, shout out to my wife for holding us down for this hard time.

I want to speak into the existence that, Fuck it, I'm going to do some stand-up comedy.

You've been a big inspiration, so shout out to you, too, Theo. Peace. Oh, well, thank you. Thank you for the call, man. Yeah, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm glad your son is being a warrior. I'm I'm glad you're here speaking prayer towards your son. I'm glad you're requesting prayer. I'm glad that you're reminding us it's okay to call others and ask for prayer and ask for energy. God, we forget that. I forget that all the time. I forget that all the time. I'll say a prayer right now. God, we lift up Mateo to you and just keep his smile hopeful and keep him cancer-free, God, and let him have the joy that he wants in the world. We lift up his mother to you, God, and just all the energy you continue to give her and all the mothers out there who have to deal with children who are suffering with illnesses. Man, that can be a heavy burden. We give thanks, God, that in witnessing other people, triumph, and this man witnessing his young son battle through chemotherapy, that it inspires him to go out and do things, that inspires him to take on things that If he wants to do comedy or he wants to sing or he wants to do a backflip online or whatever he wants to do, that it inspires him, that it pushes him through any potential failure.

Because failure is just a little bit of bootleg fear. That's all that shit is. That's all that shit. That's aftermarket fear, cut. But God, we lift him up, man. Man, it's inspiring. Isn't it inspiring to see a little three-year-old fellow out there walling around, ringing that chemo, that cancer-free bell out there. Him and Randy Moss out there That bitch, that's beautiful, man. I lift up my buddy MK, man. There's a friend of mine named MK, and his wife and their family is dealing with a lot of tragedy right now. Her brother got shot. I don't know even the situation right now. But I just want to lift him up, God, and just let his heart know that he's not alone and let her heart know and her brother's heart know that they're not alone, that people are thinking of them. In your name we pray, Amen, man. I think we did pretty good today. This is as good as I I can do today, guys. I appreciate you. I appreciate you getting all the warm messages. I'm sorry I rambled a lot about what happened in New York City, but I wanted to take a few days to digest it because it was all It wasn't all out of my control.

There was a lot of stuff going on. I'm like, some of this is real, some of this is not. I don't like to take any action when I'm a little bit tired. I I want to thank the people that did come out to the show. It was what it was. It was what it was, boy. At that, we smith stuff, bro. No, but thank you. Thank you to anybody that's come out to my show. Thank you to anybody that's just been supportive, that's been a part of this group. We're good. We're good here. We're good here. I just want you to know that wholeheartedly. I'm not here. We're good here. I'm looking forward to actually taking some time off. I just want to do things that are fun for me. I want to spend time around my friends and stuff like that. Then at the same time, I got to get a little bit of space. Sometimes I spend so much time on my phone, these things, just texting, so many things that are just like, I just want to be able to have a little bit of peace for myself, and I deserve it.

I deserve it. We all deserve it. I want to thank everybody for their calls. I want to thank everybody for their care. I want to thank everybody for their calls, sharing their own words and stories and stories. I on the hotline. I did get back on my medication. I want people to know that. I'm not worried about that stuff. I'm not worried about that stuff. I'm Maybe one day I'll be able to be off of it. I'm going to make sure that I work with a doctor if I think about that again. But one day it would be nice to be able to have all your feelings in a manageable way and to have all of your feelings. All right. Thank you guys so much. Man, we got a lot of life to look forward to. I I believe that, and I know you do, too. You guys be good to yourselves. I'm going to do the same thing. Okay? I promise. All right? I'm upstairs. Gang, baby. Now, I'm just floating on the breeze, and I feel I'm falling like these leaves. I must be cornerstone. Oh, but when I reach that ground, I'll share this peace of mind I found I can feel my bones.

But it's going to take.