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Listen now on your favorite podcast platform. From the New York Times, this is the interview. I'm Lulu Garcia Navarro. One of the things I often get asked about this job is, what is the hardest thing about interviewing famous people? The answer is both obvious and a real challenge. Many stars, and especially female stars, have experienced the ugly side of celebrity culture, which has made them wary about opening up. That's also true for today's guest, Jennifer Lawrence. Lawrence had a heady start to her career, starring in two huge franchises, The Hunger Games and Xmen, and winning an Oscar for Silver Lining's playbook all before she turned 23. Off camera, the public couldn't seem to get enough of her offbeat humor and outspoken persona. Privately, though, Laurence told me she was feeling pretty beat up and was waiting for the inevitable backlash. And it came in waves of negative attention and headlines about whether she was too much, too annoying, too outspoken, a fake. So after almost a decade of being in the limelight in 2018, Laurence took a step back from acting, fired her agency, and did some soul searching. And now, as I found out when I sat down with her, she is demonstrably different.

We talked in advance of her new film, Lynn Ramsey's Die, My Love. She plays a young mother losing her mind in rural Montana. Laurence told me her character, Grace, brought up a lot of complicated feelings because of her own struggles with postpartum symptoms. We started, though, talking about how this project came to her, which involved a very famous director and his very private book club. Here's my conversation with Jennifer Lawrence. Thank you so much for joining the interview. I'm so excited to talk.

Thanks for having me.

I want to talk about your new film because I have a lot of thoughts. This film was adapted from a book by Ariana Harvitz, and Martin Scorsese was the one who wanted you to play this role after he read the book in his Book Club.

I know.

When he reached out, what did he say?

It was very complementary, so I would be remiss to repeat it. Please repeat it. No, It was very nice, but he was just like... I think, first of all, he said that I should read it and that I would be good in it. I read it. I was actually... I had just had my first baby, and so it was a lot. It was really overwhelming. I read it in one sitting, but I was actually in a really good place in my postpartum journey. I didn't struggle in the classic postpartum way. I bonded right away with my son. I think because of that, I was able to allow my mind to go to those darker places. I think if I was in a dark place and I read it, I would be too afraid of it. It's like turning all the lights on and looking at the monster under the bed or something.

Before we move on, who is in Marty Scorsese's Book Club?

I know. I don't know. I could just ask. I think you need to ask. The worst he could say is, I don't feel like telling you.

Are you in a book club?

I'm in a soft book club. We tried. We tried to make an official book, but we're just too different in our tastes.

Back to the film. As I was watching it, it seemed to me like this scream against the current elevation of domestic life and perfect motherhood as the pinnacle of female achievement. What is this film about for you?

It morphs for me. I think that it's definitely about somebody losing her identity and motherhood and rage at not just her husband, but the change of the relationship, the change of the love. But what I really like about it is it's poetry. There's not a single way to look at it. There's a statement and then breathing room for you to read into what the statement means to you. Everybody I talk to comes away with something different.

How do you view what Grace, your character, is actually going through? Because I've read reviews that say that she has postpartum depression. I've read reviews that say that she is bipolar. I've read reviews that say that she has psychosis. I'm wondering, first of all, does it matter? And then how you understood what she is experiencing.

That's another thing that morphed for me and never really felt like one thing. I was pregnant. I was in my second trimester.

When you were filming this?

When I was filming this. I think there were certain realities that I couldn't look at. I spoke to a postpartum specialist who told me that a number one cause of death in mothers in the first year is suicide. That obviously into our thinking about the ending, the forest. What is the forest? What is the fire? Do they find their way back to each other? What does all of it mean? I think I saw the forest as more of a cleansing We should say at the end, she walks into this burning forest. Are we supposed to do this? Am I going to ruin the movie for everybody?

I don't know. You brought it up. That's why I have to be clear on what it is.

I don't know. I guess I have franchise paranoia, but maybe it's fine.

Franchise paranoia. I think there's not going to be a franchise of this film, but who am I to say?

I would agree with you.

Anyway, she is someone who is very...

She's really depressed. She's really unhappy. She's really angry. I think the love that you have for your child, I think sometimes when I think that she was so lost that she felt like she was the only thing wrong with her baby and that she was the only thing that could ruin her child. And when I watched it back after having my second child and actually experiencing postpartum depression, that was a really, really weird experience. I walked away with so many different opinions about it that I don't want to share because then I'll give up the whole movie and the allegories. Like, what am I doing?

Well, let me ask you something else then. You just said you experienced postpartum depression after your second child. Can you talk to me a little bit about what that looked like for you? I I guess that must have been surprising, perhaps because you- Yeah, because I was ready and I knew what I was doing and I felt more confident.

I just expected to feel the way I did with my first, which I feel like it should just be said. I think postpartum is just a physical experience that happens to everybody. I mean, your hormones are doubling every day in your first trimester, and then those hormones plummet after you have a baby. They plummet again when you wean. So my experience with my second was I I just felt like a tiger was chasing me every day. I've had so much anxiety. I had a nonstop intrusive thoughts that I was just at the whim of. They controlled me.

Fear about your child, fear about yourself. Yeah.

It was fear about my child, just picturing every worst case scenario, and then just doubting everything that I was doing, everything that... Then I was already in therapy, but I got on a drug called Xerzuvay, and I took it for two weeks, and it really helped me. If anybody is having postpartum Xerzuvay, I'm not paid by them, but they could maybe throw me something.

But that helped?

Yeah. I went on a pill that was designed for postpartum. I took it for two weeks, and it helped a lot.

I'm a parent myself and also someone who suffered from mental illness, PTSD, and other things. I was watching the film, and again, I think what's really powerful about the film is that it can't speak to different things that people have experienced. It was the universality of, of course, anyone who's been a parent and a mother, but also just anyone who struggled with their mental health. Have you, other than that time of postpartum depression, struggled with mental health issues, things like that that helped you understand the character a little better?

Yeah, I've struggled with anxiety for most of my life. Anxiety's close friend normally depression because by the end of the day, you're so exhausted from the like, adrenal burnout that you just plummet and get really sad from that. So I've struggled with that before. I think more of what I brought into the head space is the feeling of just never feeling like you're doing it right. I just live in guilt and just, you know. There's Is this the right breakfast? Is this what we should be talking about on the way home from school? I just am always worried that I'm failing them. I can keep myself from being swallowed by that because I know I'm a good mom and I know my kids are happy and I have a great husband and I have great support at home. I can do a reality check and be like, Everybody's okay. You're just spinning. But she can't. And she doesn't. And so she really just goes there. So that was very easy for me to follow that. That spiral. Yeah, spin down the drain.

The other thing that she deals with is a loss of her creative self that is also really hard. I mean, one of the things that I think as mothers, you can feel often is just how your child seems to just leach all of these All of the energy, all of the feeling of motivation out of you, and you just give it all to them. As someone who is in a creative field as an actor, was that something that you were able to connect with?

Yeah. I mean, having kids is sacrificial. It's gratifying and it's amazing and rewarding. It's all the things. It's all the things, but it's not sacrificial. I've never had to to say no to something before that I really wanted to do. I could just go do it. I do wrestle with it feels vain and selfish that I love being a creative person as much as I do. My kids and my family are more important, obviously, but they feel like equal parts of me, like an equal part. I would not be complete if I couldn't make movies. I just wouldn't. And on the one hand, when I had my son, my first born, I was like, Being an actress is the perfect job for being a hands-on mom. I can go years without working. I can be so hands-on. And then I go work a little bit. They visit, yada, yada, yada. And like, this is perfect. And then now I'm realizing I'm like, Oh, that was COVID. And you are quite busy. And so I'm reckoning with that and have been of just how much is it okay to love this and not want to give it up?

I definitely relate to that. I found the opposite problem with creativity. I had so much anxiety when my second was born that the only way I could escape was in stories and books, and in particular, the American Revolution. And so I really lost myself in ideas. And that's always been how I digest feelings.

The American Revolution, do tell.

Well, I read this amazing book called The Revolutionary by Stacey Shiff. I haven't read it. It's about Sam Adams and just... I feel like the closest thing we can get to a crystal ball is history. I feel like we're all fighting over what it means to be an American right now. I just was interested in what the original Americans' ideals were. What did they think that they were building? What did they they were getting away from? And what did they think they were creating?

I do want to talk about the American Revolution and politics, but I wanted to ask you one more thing about the film that struck me. There's a lot of nudity in the film. There's a lot of unvarnished nudity in the film. Knowing that you were pregnant, I'm just wondering how you... We have such a complicated relationship in this country with nudity and women, and I was wondering how you thought about that in the film and challenges of that.

I'm definitely not bothered by people that are bothered by nudity. They don't have to see it. They can fast forward it. But I don't really care about being judged in that way. There's this freedom of vanity in a way because I'm pregnant and it's my second. I really was not adequately prepared for how... I was like, Oh, I'll just be four or five months. I won't even start showing until I'm six or seven months. And that's not true when it's your second. I just had to let go of any vanity. I mean, I sucked in as hard as I possibly could have, but I wasn't going to die it. I was pregnant. I couldn't exercise. I was working. So there's just this real freedom to it.

Did that feel good, that release?

Yeah, it feels nice. I mean, I do have moments where I'm like, What technically are the differences between me and a prostitute? But it doesn't keep me up at night. What? Well, I don't think that there's anything wrong with prostitution either.

I'm not saying that there is. It's funny that your mind went there.

I'm just- I'm very good at attacking myself. I can find every angle. In fact, I should do this interview.

What would you ask you?

No. My God, it would be so sad.

Sorry, I have to pause you too because your couple of us is asking for just your jacket.

Oh, no. It means she didn't like something. What did I say? Actually, now that we're pausing, I'm going to be Okay.

At this point, Jennifer Lawrence gets up. We take a little break. Then a few minutes later, she comes and sits back down for the rest of the interview. Is everything okay?

Yeah. No, I didn't get yelled at. I just peed. I believe in freedom of the press. I believe in freedom of the press, too. That reminds me of one battle after another. Talking about freedom, baby.

Okay. The other thing is that your persona in the world has been someone who is very funny and out there and has sometimes been viewed as too loud, too much, and has faced backlash, and also people are charmed by it. I was wondering, now, looking back at that era, what do you think about how you were perceived and how you interacted with the public as you were coming up when you were younger?

I mean, now that I'm in my 30s and a mom, I can see how young I was. When I meet a 23-year-old now, I mean, think about a 23-year-old. They're children. As horrified as I am at some things, if something comes across my phone, I just absolutely could never watch it. Like an old interview or something. I'm just like, Oh, my God, so cringe. But I get it. I was young and nervous and defensive and awkward. I remember when I was nominated for Silver Lininges and somebody was like, Everybody loves you. What does that feel like? I was like, It feels precarious. I'm waiting for it because it's not... It's going to come down. That's just the nature of things. Then I fell getting my Oscar. Then the next year, I I remember the moment I was waving to fans and I tripped on a cone, and I remember being like, Fuck, that's it. Nobody's going to believe that. Nobody's going to believe that I fell two years in a row. I did.

Because after you tripped on your Oscar, people said- That I faked it.

That you faked it. Yeah, I didn't. And so that became... I was just like, Yeah, I'm fucked. I was. Everybody just thought that meant everything that I did was fake, and it was all a shtick. This is how it felt to me that I just got found out as this fraud.

I mean, you said at that moment that you felt that other people had gotten sick of you and you had gotten sick of yourself. I'm interested in that you had gotten sick of yourself. What did that mean?

I was sick of doing this and doing interviews is really scary. I'm very blessed. I'm I'm very lucky. I'm very grateful. I have a great job. But it's terrifying. You finish an interview or you're gearing up to release a film and it's like the circus tent, the curtains are opening and it's just like you're putting yourself out there and you're putting yourself out there to be picked apart, and it's scary. I was just so tired of it. I was just so tired of being quoted and people talking about the quotes. I I just was so tired of seeing myself in that way. I needed a break from it. People needed a break from it. Then I took a break and enjoyed the break. It was a mutual break up.

What did you do during that period where you took a step back? Because that was a two and a half year period where you weren't actually out in front. You got married. It was COVID, so there's reasons for all of that. But how were you recalibrating during that period?

I don't really know. I lived with my cousin for a little bit. Hi, Cus. Because we were in our mid 20s. She just moved into my apartment in New York, and we became roommates, and it was fun. We watched TV. I took my dog to Central Park. Then I fell in love. Then I started learning more about contemporary postwar art. As you do. As you do. My husband's an art dealer.

May I ask how you met your Yeah, he showed me art.

I was considering buying something, and I asked my friend Jean, who actually ended up directing me in no hard feelings, but I asked him, Do you know anybody in the art world? And he sent me Cook's number. I didn't know. Then I showed up to the gallery and was like, Oh, my God, what is your deal? And then he stopped being my art advisor.

Do you find it hard to be your authentic self when you're trying to interact with the public because of what you went through? Because I saw you at this press conference that you gave in Spain, and you seem a lot more reserved than you used to be, more careful more considered. I'm just wondering if that is deliberate.

Yeah. I mean, I think I've also grown up, and I'm a lot more nervous about whatever I say publicly. I try not to... I don't want to give an interview that's a bunch of sound bites and a word salad. I just don't think that that's interesting, and I don't feel like that's what I'm like. It just would feel so inauthentic and not what I'm here to do. I'm trying to strike that balance.

I'm going to break the fourth wall here, but it's always a strange thing to do. I'm journalist asking you questions. I obviously want you to give revealing answers, and you have to protect yourself as an artist and as a private person in the world. I often think about how complicated that dance is, especially for women. I mean, do you think as a female artist that you have been treated differently than perhaps other men? Because you were young, you were open to the world in a way that perhaps other people aren't? You didn't seem so jaded, I you think?

Thank you. I don't know if it's different than if I were a man because I've just never lived that existence. I only know this one. That was the wrong question. No, it wasn't. I'm getting around to it. I'm just dancing around your question because we are doing the dance. We are. I feel it when it's time for women to be the morality police. It's easy for me to see it when it's happening, when somebody does a Woody Allen movie and they ask the women, Well, how do you feel about working with Woody Allen? You can just watch it. You just watch not one male actor get asked that question. I see that play out a lot of just women being the examples, women being the morality police. Also, I think there is something, I don't know what it is. It's really easy to hate women viciously in a way that it's almost like we have this ire in us that specifically there's an extra for it and the ire that people are capable of, I think, is different. I never at any point felt like this is unfair because of my gender. I felt like this is unfair because of was, You created this.

You ask and you ask, and you ask, and you want, and you want, and you want, and then you don't want it anymore. I felt rejected. But now that I'm older, that is a natural push-pull of the process, and I have to be in control of how much access is given and how much isn't.

After the break, Jennifer tells me about being politically outspoken early in her career and why she's approaching things differently now.

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Com/games for a special offer. I did want to ask you about your relationship with some of your directors because you have been with directors who are known as being very difficult, challenging directors, people who are auteurs, have really clear visions.

For example, when you were making Mother with Darren Aronowski. You hyperventilated, you tore your diaphragm, you got medical attention, and then he made you film the scene again when you got back. I'm just wondering what that intensity does for you. How do you work with directors really bring that out in you and demand that of you?

I stay loose. I think David O'Russell really taught me how to... I think because of David, it's never really mattered what the director's methodology is. I can...

I mean, Amy Adams, who was in American Hustle with you, and that was obviously David O'Russell, said of you, Jennifer doesn't take any of it on. She's Teflon, saying that you don't absorb some of that stuff.

Yeah, I didn't. But I really felt like David, that was his way of communicating in a non-bullshit way. I never felt like he was degrading or yelling at me. If he didn't like something, he was just like, That was terrible. It looked like shit. Do it better. That was a very helpful conversation. Like, Oh, okay. I'll do it better. How so? I don't know. Slower, not so loud. It was just very… I'm not sensitive. I don't know how you can be in this industry, especially. I mean, these young girls, hopefully, are going to grow up in a different time.

Well, I mean, Amy Adams said that she cried on set. When she talked about you being Tefla, and she said that for her, it was hard.

Well, maybe he was harder on her than he was on me. Also, I don't know. I mean, yes, of course, I'm sensitive. I'm really sensitive. I don't even know why I said that.

I was about to say we've literally had this entire conversation about how sensitive I'm so sensitive.

I can't believe I just said that. I had a conversation with a girl the other night. She was like, Oh, I'm the middle with two brothers. I was like, I'm the middle child with two brothers. We just talked about it passionately for five minutes. Then I was like, I'm the youngest. I'm sorry. She gave me the weirdest look, obviously. Because what? But that was that. I'm like, I'm not sensitive. I'm extremely sensitive.

I was going to say I didn't want to say anything, but I was like, We have talked now for quite a bit about this.

I'm more sensitive than Amy Adams, just flat out. I guess I don't mean anything I say. Do you still want to continue interviewing me?

Absolutely.

Okay.

But maybe you're less sensitive about the acting. I guess what I'm trying to get at here- I'm not sensitive about acting.

I'm not competitive about acting. My husband is always really amazed because I am so competitive. When we play tennis, I throw my racket, I scream, I rage, I can't do a puzzle. I'm so competitive competitive. I make eye contact with him when we're brushing teeth sometimes because I'm like, I did it a little bit longer than you. Did you notice that? And so he finds it fascinating that I'm not competitive with acting. But I think it's because I feel secure. So why would I get competitive? I feel fine. And so when it comes to getting the director, I mean, you need to have a visionary. I think it's working with a real artist that I can trust.

I I mean, you're about to do a film with Martin Scorsese, which is coming up.

Yeah, I don't know if I trust him.

Yeah. I mean, why would you? He's such a neophy.

He's going to have to really prove himself to me.

Tell me about in advance of working with a director like Martin Scorsese, you haven't actually been directed by him. I mean, how do you prepare for something like that?

I'll probably do what I always do, which is panic and then try to get in touch with an acting teacher and then meet the acting teacher and then never see them again. That's your process. That is my process. At this point, it's almost superstitious if I don't take the one meeting and then not follow up. I'll read, I'll be prepared, I'll memorize. Leo is- Leonardo DiCaprio. Leonardo DiCaprio. We work together on Don't Look Up, and he knows when his character was born and what cologne they wear. Leo in one battle after another is serious in his commitment. It's so real, and that's what makes it hilarious. His sides are covered in a look. He's like, Kerry Matherson, and I don't know what sides means. The whole script. You don't know what sides mean? No. Excuse me. Sorry. Sorry. I didn't mean to get all the silver screen on you. You did. Well, kid. Sides are... Tell me. Sides are just a few pages, like a scene from from the whole script. When I was working with Leo, I was just like, I got to be doing whatever he's doing. This is incredible. But Christian Bale changed me a lot to an American hustle.

I was 23, and I remember I was always very sensitive about getting embarrassed in front of the crew. I thought acting was embarrassing. I would just try to make a point of not acting until I just absolutely had to, like an action. But then I would see Christian who didn't like it. It's not like he stayed in character all day or anything. When the crew started getting ready, the light started getting ready and the sound, and it became clear we were going to start rolling soon, he would slowly start getting ready. And then I was like, That seems like a good idea, and I should do that when I'm more mature and can handle people looking at me and being like, She's acting.

You mentioned one battle after another.

Oh, my God. I saw it last night. I know that it is now further in the future. If you're hearing this- Yes, it doesn't matter.

We're timestamping it. You saw it last night.

I saw it last night in 70 Millimeter IMAX, as God intended. It's the most incredible movie I've ever seen in my entire life. I feel so grateful just for that to exist, I just kiss the ground that that movie walks on.

It's also a film that it speaks to, as we started discussing, it speaks to this political moment in a very interesting and important way that is funny, that is complicated.

It's a good idea. It's not a bad idea.

What do you mean?

A revolution.

You have been politically outspoken in the past in In the first Trump administration, you had a lot to say. I'm curious, how you feel about talking out now?

I don't really know if I should. I think the first administration was so wild and just, how can we let this stand? I felt like I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off. But as we've learned, election after election, celebrities do not make a difference whatsoever on who people vote for. And so then what am I doing? I'm just sharing my opinion on something that's going to just add fuel to a fire that's ripping the country apart. I mean, we are so divided. I think I'm in a complicated recalibration because I'm also an artist. And with this temperature and the way that things can turn out, I don't want to start turning people off to films and to art that could change consciousness or change the world because they don't like my political opinions. I want to protect my craft so that you can still get lost in what I'm doing, what I'm showing. If I can't say something that's going to speak to some peace or lowering the temperature or some solution, I just don't want. I don't want to be a part of the problem. I don't want to make the problem worse.

I saw you at a press conference recently when you were speaking about Gaza point to our elected officials as the people who need to be responsible for answering those questions and not putting that on actors and other celebrities to take a stand.

Yeah, it's like looking at a chess board. You just watch these actors' faces who have had incredible careers and done amazing things and made incredible contributions. That all of a sudden one half of the Internet or one half of the country just can't stand anymore. They don't want to see their face anymore because of blah, blah, blah, blah, blah I don't know. I try to express myself in my politics through my work. I made a documentary called Bread and Roses at the Taliban Retakeover in Afghanistan and Souravski versus Texas about the Abortion Ban. Pretty much a lot of my movies coming up from my production company are expressions of the political landscape. That's how I feel like I can be helpful. That's how I feel like I can, I don't know, bring awareness or do something.

Do you regret how you dealt with things before?

I don't know, probably. I mean, I regret everything I've ever done or said.

By Five seconds after you've done or said.

Yeah, of course. I'm going to take the zip drives out of all of these cameras when I leave. The second term feels different because it's like we all knew he said what he was going to do. We knew what he did for four years. He was very clear. And that's what we chose, again. I think there's something that just feels different at the second term.

I want to thank you for being so thoughtful.

Thank you. Thank you for having me.

That's Jennifer Lawrence. Her movie Die My Love will be in theaters starting November seventh. To watch this interview and many others, you can subscribe to our YouTube channel at youtube. Com/@symboltheinterviewpodcast. This conversation was produced by Seth It was edited by Annabelle Bacon, mixing by Sonia Herrero. Original music by Dan Powell and Marion Lozano. Photography by Philip Montgomery. Our senior booker is Priya Matthew, and Wyatt Orm is our producer. Our executive producer is Allison Benedict. Video of this interview was produced by Paula Neudorff. Cinematography by Zack Caldwell, with additional camera work by Jenny Levet, Luke Piatrowski, Zebediah Smith, and Alfredo Chiarapa. Audio by nick Pitman. It was edited by Eddie Kostas. Brook Minters is the executive producer of podcast video. Special thanks to Alyssa Wilkinson, Rory Walsh, Ronan Borelli, Jeffrey Miranda, Maddie Macielo, Jake Silverstein, Paula Schumann, and Sam Delnick. Next week, David talks to Fox News' late-night star, Greg Gutfeld, about his hit show, Humor in the Time of Trump, and why he thinks the Right is having all the fun. The way people view Conservatives versus Liberals is Dean Wurmer and Animal House. The Liberals are Animal House, the Conservatives are always Dean Wurmer.

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